I seriously don’t know what I wanna be when I grow up. I haven’t had a (paying) job in over 6 years. I’ve been at home with my girls for five of those years, and did manage to get my Education Degree from the U of S in the meantime, but do I really want to be a teacher? To be with snotty, bratty kids all day, just to come home to my own snotty brats?! Okay, kids aren’t that bad. I love them. I find myself drawn to them and have to fight back the urge to pick them up and snuggle them. But still, I wonder if I would quickly burn out from such a demanding vocation.
Being at home with my girls has been wonderful. To be there every time they needed has been a gift. But, I need more. As Miranda from SATC 2 confessed so honestly: “Being a mother is not enough for me.” I bawled my eyes out when I heard her say that because, for me, she really hit the nail on the head.
I’ve made peace with that, but that’s about as far as I’ve gotten. I feel like a teenager on Career Day. I see all the possibilities out there and am excited. Media says you need to follow your dreams and do something you’re passionate about. I’ve been trying to make lists to decide what I’m truly passionate about. My list includes such things as cooking, baking and writing. But then there’s the problem with the rational part of my mind saying; “You can’t do that! You have a family to think of!”.
And so goes the swirl of undecidedness (My spell check says that isn’t a word, but I know it is. Doesn’t it know I’m a teacher?). Back and forth until I get very bitchy, emotional and discouraged.
I am leaving on Friday morning for a yoga retreat on Salt Spring Island in BC. Four days away from everyone and everything familiar. I can’t wait. The idea is for me to have enough time to myself to actually be able to decipher through some of my thoughts and maybe even make some life-changing decisions. Yoga brings me to a place where I can open my mind and let truth flow in and out. I’ll let you know how it turns out.
And if that doesn’t work, I think I’ll just rely on the genius of Dr. Seuss to guide me. I think I’d be a really good hammock tester!
Maybe You Should Fly a Jet! Maybe You Should Be a Vet!Want to be a ticket taker? Want to be a pizza maker?
Lobersterman, jockey, TV fixer, ballet dancer, soda mixer
Do you want to be an astronaut? Or keeper of the zoo? You’ve got to do something.
What DO you want to do?
Tailor? Sailor? Nailer? Jailer? You’ve got to BE someone sooner or later.
How about a wrestler … a writer … or a waiter?
How about a dentist? How about a florist? How about a forester working in a forest?
Do you wish to be an oil refiner? Diamond miner? Dress designer?
How about a paper hanger? How about a bass drum banger?
Do you want to do your work outdoors? Do you want to work inside?
Would you like to be a plumber … a policeman … or a bride?
Would you rather work in a mountain town …or in the desert lower down?
Pet shop owner, money loaner, how about a slide tromboner?
How about a perfume smeller? How about a fortune teller?
You could be a turkey farmer. You could be a teacher.
You could be a lot of things. How about a preacher?
You could be a clown! Or a coffee perker!
How about an iron worker?
Fireman, tireman, telephone wireman.
Some girls make good picture framers. Some girls make good lion tamers.
Some guys make good tightrope walkers. Other guys are better talkers.
Maybe you should fly a jet. Maybe you should be a vet.
How about a deep-sea diver? How about a beehive hiver?
Would you like to be an actor? Would you like to run a tractor?
Like to drive a taxicab? … Or run a big computer lab?
Tennis pro … optometrist Hockey pro … podiatrist
Chemist … Lepidopterist
Glass blower, mushroom grower, How about a fishbone boner or a roller coaster owner?
Would you sooner be a ballooner or a grand-piano tuner?
Olympic champion? Mountain guide? It’s not easy to decide.
You’ve go to be someone! You can’t just be a doodler.
You could be a sculptor … or, perhaps, a noodle noodler.
You might be a mystery guy! Would you like to be a spy?
Maybe you should be a vester … a jester or a hammock tester.
Maybe you should be a voice. Someday you must make a choice.
Maybe you should be a FOICE! ?????
When you find out what a FOICE is, you can tell us what your choice is.